You may have deduced from the title that finding an apartment has not gone well.
As August fast approaches, I'm growing more and more worried because I'm now officially working in the East Bay, and in a month I will be going to school there, too. I DO NOT want to be hopping from couch to couch when school starts, but I don't want to be so poor I can't afford food, either. And with all these numbers bumbling around in my head (rent, deposit, utilities, tuition, book costs...) I think if I talk about money or payments tonight I might burst into tears. I haven't even spent the money yet, and I already feel its loss, and with that goes the security of knowing that I'll have back up cash just in case I have an emergency. I feel like I'm being robbed. I mean, I have all this money saved, and yet I realistically can't even afford to buy a decent pair of shoes. I feel guilty when I buy lunch for myself when I'm at work. When I'm not working, I try not to leave the house at all, so I won't spend any money. I feel like a hermit, and I don't like it at all!