Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Hair Coverings I Wish I Could Pull Off

First off, I'd just like to clarify something from my last post about head coverings.  I may have come off a bit self righteous when I talked about reasons for head covering, and I apologize for that.  My intention was not to condemn those who do not cover/want to cover for the same reasons I do. Many common reasons for women practicing head covering is for modesty as described in their holy texts, submission to God, or submission to men, or for a whole host of other reasons I don't know about.  And that's great!  More power to them for sticking to their faith.  However, modesty and submission are not MY reasons for head covering, and I do have issue with the concept of women being forced to cover themselves for men or for God (really, I have issue with women being forced to do anything).  That being said, it's not really my place to judge other religious followers, especially when people are so quick to judge me. So I apologize.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Why I'm Constantly Stressing

"Could you tell me the way to Crazy?"

So, I only have a month left this semester as far as school goes (holy crap, where does the time go?!), which means I have a month left before I'm a senior, which means I only have like 8 months before I have to turn in my Senior Thesis, which is really rocking the pants off me right now.... there's just so much to do in such a short span of time, and on top of that I have work to think about (NOOOOOOOOOOOOO).  So I've been stressing about all of this pretty much constantly.

And then I realized:  I have to apply to Grad School.

Now, I've always known I was going to apply to grad school, pretty much since I was in high school. But I was in my teens!  REGULAR college seemed a million miles away, let alone my graduate studies.  And to be honest, my plans for college took interesting turns in the last few years.  I mean, I wanted to go to New York and that didn't pan out, then I went to College of Marin, first for psychology and then for liberal arts, all the while going back and for the between applying to Cal or a CSU or going out of state before I finally decided to apply early to Mills (which surprisingly worked out) and now that I'm finally getting sort of settled, I've suddenly realized that I have ONE YEAR before I graduate with my BA.  Sure, it's a year later than anticipated, but still.  I feel accomplished.  After all of that, now I have to apply to grad school?  I mean, I think I'm working hard right now, but just wait until I start my graduate studies.

Gotta pick one....

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Head Covering and My Spiritual Experience

I promised to talk more about my recent spiritual activity, so here it is!

There have been a few things going on with me as far as spirituality and religion go, in particular the urge to be more involved in my practices.  That's one of the reasons why I created the Daily Prayer resolution-- I wanted to be more connected to the Divine on a daily basis, and I feel like prayer is an important spiritual practice in regards to connection with the Divine.  It's been a struggle to do intentional prayer on a daily basis, but I'm working my way up.  Prayer in general has been a really important aspect of my faith, and has held steady both as a christian and as a pagan. Prayer is a very real way for me to connect with the Divine, and as a fan of rituals I've been trying to make prayer part of my daily routine.

In addition to prayer, I've been dabbling in head covering.  I know, not really a pagan tradition. Or is it?  I did some googling, and I found that there are quite a few pagan women out there who practice head covering as part of their spiritual practice. In fact, there's a private group on Facebook for pagan women who practice head covering. And in reality, headcovering itself is not some special tradition known only to fundamentalist Christians or  practicing Muslims.  The Romans and Greeks did it, Jewish men and women do it, Catholics do it, and yes, even pagans do it. And there are plenty of people out there who cover their heads for non-religious reasons, as well.

Pretty sure J-Lo is not a married Orthodox Jewish woman, but she can rock a tichel if she wants to!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

March Resolutions (Belated) Update

Oh, how far I have fallen.

Okay, in actuality, I haven't done too shabby.  But seriously, I've been slacking. Before I update what I've done this month, let me preface it with this: I am TIRED. Not like oh, I could use a nap tired. I mean IF I KEEP MY EYES OPEN FOR ONE MORE SECOND I WILL DIE! tired. I have basically been running on empty the past few weeks, with constantly working and doing school work, and to be honest this semester is kinda kicking my ass.  I'm working hard to keep up, but with all of the things going wrong with my body (found out I'm anemic, which explains the constant fatigue), the stress of school, and the craziness at work, I'm beat.  And this has taken its toll on my relationships, my mood, and my activities, including my resolutions.  Keeping in mind that many of these resolutions are more about the journey than the destination, here are the updates for March.

Things I've Done Well

  •  I bought my Macbook Pro! On the 19th after work Kourtney and I met in Walnut Creek and walked to the Apple Store and bought my new baby.  This is after a full year of saving, so it's a very momentous occasion for me.  I'm not the kind of person who spends frivolously or often, so throwing down almost 2 grand for a computer was a little startling, but I saved up more than I needed, so I wouldn't be broke afterward.  I have a nice cushion to fall back on if I need it, AND a shiny new computer to love. YAY.
  •  I've been eating more vegetables.  This is part of the eating healthier and feeling better about my body resolution.  Kourtney is mostly in charge of food preparation at our house, so she's been making almost every dinner with a vegetable, which is great.  Also, because I'm anemic, I've had to try and eat more red meat, because it's a great source of iron, of which I'm deficient. I'm not a huge fan of red meat, so this has been a bit of a challenge. I'm more of a chicken kind of a gal.  Getting more red meat into my diet is a little bit intimidating because so much of red meat is characterized in American culture (especially "women's culture") as being bad; too fatty.  If you eat red meat on a regular basis, you're begging to be fat forever.  This kind of mentality, which I've been surrounded by for most of my adolescent/adult life-- especially among my social circles-- really plays on my insecurities surrounding food, and to be honest it gives me a fair amount of anxiety if I think about it too much.  I hope the increase in vegetables will balance out the increase in red meats.